its so hard.

this calls for desperate measures.

• freezing of facebook account, friendster account and neopets account.
• major sifting through the manymanymany piles of paper of useful notes but they were never used and FILE THEM.
• makeover – how i spend my time, and what do i do with what i have.
• fasting, cause i really need alotalotalot of God’s grace and His help, with manymanymany things
• a great reconstruction of…every single aspect

things to do:

• too many to count
• no time to count
• might as well start doing them now.

God, i know you have plans for me, and you have many more things to tell me, and for me to do them for you. and God, i know You’re the almighty, i know You want me to make You my first priority in my life and it is my choice and mine alone. But God, i’m confused. i need confirmation, i know of Your plans but i’m too small, too weak, to unworthy to carry them out. God, give me wisdom, because i can’t make the right choice, for You. Give me wisdom, such that i will be able to glorify You and You alone, in every aspect of my life. God, give me the reassurance that i need and give me the everlasting faithfulness that You have to me, such that i will be as faithful to you too. In Jesus most Precious Name i pray, Amen.

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its so exciting

God, give us every campus, every city and every nation in this generation! Revival and reformation – nothing less!

my title doesn’t tally with post, so i shan’t bother.

studied today with honk (: hee real fun/amusing…but its nice to have a friend like honk around yay yay (:

shall attempt to post some nice pictures honkie took. they’re real good. i want a camera too :( hahaha ah okay. i should be satisfied with a camera phone but oh wells. real cameras are better.

(click on the photos to enlarge)

poor balloons abandoned by their owners and being kind and helpful and whatnot, honkie picked them up and decided to take a photo of them (: found out eventually the reason why there were this number of crescent girls holding on to the balloons was because of the leftovers during the sports meet, so there goes. free balloons. sis brought one home too, yellow with delta on it. haha, part balloon (: on a random note, the ceiling does look like cottage cheese, right? yes, i know you nodded your head ((:

sort of, like the first picture more…i think the second one was meant to be a sneak shot, like the first, but i saw honk and haha, that explains the face.

that noisy speaker that i suppose went crazy kept replaying, ‘all day all night’ at the average of once every 5 minutes. it played a total of 33 times the whole time we were there, from the time we started studying, like solid studying.

the evidence of 33 times.

by the way, it was raining bulls and cows when honk and i decided that we should head home, that was at 5.55pm. we waited for 15min, and the rain continued to pour relentlessly. (sounds so cliche, almost like the OBS essay we had to write.) Then we were planning how to get to the bus stop without getting that wet. wanted to hitch a ride, see any kind sould would ferry us to the bus stop, for free of course. but then decided that it was probably too dangerous so we went to get umbrellas from cold storage instead. honk paid for them.

haha i’m in such hot soup. rhen’s obs shirt money + her extremely belated birthday present money + umbrella money + starbucks money. y’ouch.

i don’t know where to fit this into the post so…i got my i/c today (:

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felt…so irritated, so angry, so fed up today. but why today? i was so encouraged on my way home, and the minute i step into the house, i was brought down again. not a nice feeling…

‘Watch and pray, lest you enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.’

Mark 14:38

Luke 14:26

One day when large groups of people were walking along with him, Jesus turned and told them, “Anyone who comes to me but refuses to let go of father, mother, spouse, children, brothers, sisters—yes, even one’s own self!—can’t be my disciple. Anyone who won’t shoulder his own cross and follow behind me can’t be my disciple.

Luke 14:25-27(The Message Version)

“If anyone comes to me but loves his father, mother, wife, children, brothers, or sisters—or even life—more than me, he cannot be my follower.

Luke 14:26 (New Century Version)

 

 i saw this verse at least 5 times today. and the reason why i looked it up was because of a anti-Christ video. in some ways, i’m thankful for being able to see it. a while back while preparing notes, again i read this verse while reading the whole assigned passage. God’s amazing.

this verse reminded me of what is expected of a disciple of Jesus, and what it meant to love Him wholeheartedly.

day in day out, we keep saying we love Him. people all over the world gather at church every Sunday and sing songs of love, praise and worship to Him. but how many of these people actually love Him? Love him more than we love anything else in this world.

it was a great reminder.

Lord, help me to love you more and more by day.